Dendrites and Kisses

A silver Ford swerves past me.
I glance,
and find images
that race through my brain.
Like fire
my mind raises up against me.
I shudder.
How can you
invade my thoughts?
Am I condemned to always think
of you?

Your smile
is like candy to my sugar tooth.
I wish it wasn't.
I wish it wasn't.
I want to forget you. I want
to rise
against the storm of life and say
"At least I tried.
At least I was denied."
At least
I kept that first kiss
In a jar for safekeeping.

I think
I lost
the jar.